They (bob, jillian, oprah) always say you have to figure out what is behind the weight. Emotionally. But I never could quite figure it out. I like food. I eat when I'm bored, stressed, blah blah blah. But I had a great upbringing. I'm not filling empty emotional holes with food. So why do I eat junk I know is not good for me?
Then I finally had a breakthrough on one of my recent runs (where I always do my best thinking).
I have never been challenged.
My childhood was fun. My parents spoiled me. I didn't have chores. Schoolwork came easily to me. I never had to struggle much to keep my good grades. I don't like competition much, and I will usually be the first one to back down if something is too difficult or if I might fail.
But guess what? I was chubby, shy and insecure. I wanted to be on the cheerleading team, the volleyball team, the basketball team. But tennis and band were all I could do well enough. I wanted to date the cute class VP, but an awkward boyfriend from a neighboring town would have to do.
I have never challenged myself to be better. Do better. Well I challenge myself NOW. I will lose the last 25 lbs. I will be a hot wife and a healthy mama for my kids. And I will run a 10k in June!
I managed to not sabotage myself this weekend and got in a total of SIX miles (3 Sat/3 Sun) plus two yesterday. Trying to take full advantage of this wonderful February weather!
I'll admit, I have mom guilt some days. However Saturday when I came back from my run and found the kids marching up and down the hallway timing themselves to see how long they could go, I was reminded of the good example I was setting for them. So I went back out on Sunday for another run and didn't feel a tinge of guilt.
I am super happy with my weigh-in this morning. Down THREE pounds! I feel like I'm back on track and I'm ready to keep making those numbers go down!
2013 wednesday weigh-ins
Feb 6 [week 3] 172.2 (-3)
Jan 30 [week 2] 175.2 (+1.2)
Jan 23 [week 1] 174.0 (+3)
Dec 2011 starting weight: 196
Goal weight: 149
Pounds lost: 23.8
Pounds to go: 23.2
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| Riverfront Park. As close as I can get to running on the beach. |
Awesome loss and an even better example that you're setting for your kids! I can't wait to read all about your 10K once it happens... I have my first 5K in the spring and then I plan on tackling a 10K!
ReplyDeleteThanks! I have run a couple of 5Ks and was so tempted to register for another one, but decided to push myself this time. You'll love it though - they're so much fun!
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